my complicated drama life

FADED MEMORIES

2007-10-05T05:10:00.001-07:00

CONCRETE ANGEL...

2007-05-18T04:57:00.000-07:00

Bearing the burden of a secret storm
Sometimes she wishes she was never born
Through the wind and the rain
She stands hard as a stone
In a world that she can't rise above
But her dreams give her wings
And she flies to a place where she's loved
Concrete angel
A statue stands in a shaded place
An angel girl with an upturned face
A name is written on a polished rock
A broken heart that the world forgot

someday,i'll flew away leaving this place far far away where i'll be home....

Adults who have few of their emotional needs met are often unable to respond to the needs of their children. They may not show attachment to the child or provide nurturance. They may show no interest in the child, express affection or even recognize the child's presence. Many times the parent is physically there but emotionally unavailable.
Other types of abuse are usually identifiable because marks or other physical evidence is left, however, emotional abuse can be very hard to diagnose or even to define
Emotional abuse is probably the least understood of all child abuse, yet it is the most prevalent, and can be the cruelest and most destructive of all types of abuse.
empty houses,empty rooms...
so scary that it echos....
she said nothing much about it
just look at it....

someday,i'll flew away leaving this place far far away where i'll be home....

2007-05-11T01:25:00.001-07:00

SICK !

2007-05-11T00:13:00.000-07:00

WOOHOO! I LOVE BEING SICK BECAUSE EVERYONE WILL BE AT HOME FOR MIIE!

sick for dn know what reason but actually i am enjoying it a lot because my mum,dad,grandma all at home to look after miie! loving it but actually sick very pain lahx...let go throught the process..hehe
tuesday nite abt 10plus,damn not feeling well then decided to take temp! got the shock it was 39 degrees lahx.hurried rush to bed but to no avail because cannot sleep but if sleep only for an hour then woke up so it;s like woke up @ 1 am,2am,3am,4,am ,5am then lastly 530am...haiz siao rite!then through the stupid horrible night, my temp rose to 39.6 degrees! then panicked arh,called my frenz then they ask me want go hospital or not then refused...no way,i wanna sleep hehe.then everyone got freaked over me keep calling me smsing till i woke up lahx...

actually my mum called ask me dn got to school she come from msia and fetch miie home,but being the stubborn me refused then she ask me eat panadol lahx..hehe i never...never really like medicine anyway so ended up much worse...

went for the stupid physics test,really losing my mind,my temp was 39.6 all the way then during physic anyhow do lahx...ms yee a bit concern ask me want go home i dn want!take the stupid test first.then during the stupid test realize my calculator in my bag then i really just give up,anyhow do the paper then go to sleep !!hehe,the teacher dn care one!!

think i am going to fail it but really dn care now..hehe went mac with daniel after the test just sat there and tok and i got a blue happy meal ballon!!hehe!like it a lot!thks daniel!

really tired just drifting away but i saw this video and omigod!! very sexual and hot!
those watching don;t nose bleed on my blood k!
CAUTION: OLD JAILBIRD LATER YOU HEART ATTACK
DARLING GIRL'S HONEY: DN LET HER CATCH YOU
BEMZ: WATCH ALL YOU WANT HEHE DN CARE!
TO ALL: DN DIE HERE OKAY

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2007-05-07T11:02:00.001-07:00

我被贴上一种失恋的标签
这首歌真的很赞啊
感觉不到从前温柔的双眼,感觉得到你已不再眷恋
最近爱上了哀伤的歌,应该是心情吧!不管那么多!今天要好好地过!我为得是自己而活不是为别人!
一直认为属于夜晚的玫瑰才有一颗心
最近发现了
原来白日的玫瑰也会有心
不同的是白日的玫瑰因为有心人爱惜灌浇所以有心
而夜晚的玫瑰只能是与露水参合的品种
那颗心啊
原来是凝结这胸口的鲜血孕育出来的......泪水
hehe posting so long but really just want to add in some last minutes thought..
HEY PPL TAG LAHX...
a bit boring to come to a blog where no one tags but i thick skin arh,still write
TODAY IS A GOOD DAY!
found out that i have a really good friend who can stand up for me because she think i like the victim.hehe! IMPLYING YOU LAHX IDAYU!!
now in hospital hehe so used labtop lahx but the internet connection damn lousy..uhhh!!!
miss moumou a lot a lot although she rite here at my leg but not going to see her until friday..
boohoo! miss her and of course drix lahx and all my other darlings!!muacks!
oh yar remembered something( eh,jailbird,you too old to still chose your darlings lahx,my suggestion is still the best loh!!)
then to bemz: eh,that day is your ps yourself lohx too bad lahx.only moumou and i go.hehe
darling girl: sorry lahx babe want to tell you one but cannot arh

yesterday took moumou to the beach@ danga bay( MSIA)!
want to complain about something!
hello, msia govt sucks!it;s is so fucking unfair that cats are allowed in the mall but not dogs because there are malays.fuck you msia!but a lot of ppl yesterday took photo with moumou cause she too cute mahx and she was the only dog ever to go there!new record.lazy to post pictures,next time arhx.
moumou is now a celebrity at danga bay even the poster got her cause she is so damn cute!make the right choice is taking her.!she damn sayang one lahx
see ppl then go and want ppl to pet,only bark at strangers that we never say is friends and she very cute.like to slp at my lap..arrhhh!
FALLING IN LOVE!

mood not bad recently cause got a lot of good friends to cheer me on..hehe enjoying and basking in the love

but i think home is really an empty space.i means i sleep in a big house,big bed but no one except doggies.and in singapore just me in a 5 bedroom flat except when my guardian comes over...i eat,sleep, study alone except when with friends lahx..at least i got damn lot friends and good one get me through..but i am used to it ever since i was just 7 i live around...really realize money is nothing when you have no one who is your family around you

SO TO THOSE WHO WANT TO MOVE OUT AND LIVE AROUND AND GET AWAY FROM YOUR FAMILY!!!TAKE A PIECE AN ADVICE FROM ME THE GAL WHO LIVE ALONE SINCE I WAS 7 !DON'T! REALLY MUST CHERISH YOUR FAMILY,IT;S REALLY NICE TO LOOK FORWARD TO GOING HOME AND THINKING THAT THERE;S A MEAL COOKED FOR YOU AND FAMILY TO EAT WITH.IT;S NOT BETTER TO EAT ALONE,HOW HEART-BREAKING YOU FEEL WHEN YOU SEE A FAMILY EATING TOGETHER,HOW NICE IT WOULD BE TO WATCH A TV SHOW WITH YOUR WHOLE FAMILY.I HAVEN'T DONE IT FOR YEARS....REALLY YOUR FAMILY ARE THOSE WHO REALLY CARE AND LOVE AND BE THERE FOR YO WHEN YOU'RE DOWN.YOUR MOTHER MAY NAG BUT IT;S JUST LOVE...REALLY,I WISH I COULD EXCHANGE PLACES WITH THOSE WHO HAVE A HAPPY FAMILY!DON;T THINK THE WHOLE WORLD EVOLVES AROUND YOU IF ONE DAY YOU FIND YOUR FAMILY GONE THEN YOU'LL KNOW THE PAIN!

GOD,makes me wish i have them..although i have no curfew,no rules.it would be nice if someone even notice i was not home for days and someone in the family notice i didn;t go school not the maid!someone to go with me to the hospital...just someone...i want my family..

hehe..going siao!drifting away

ta-ta sleeping beauty must catch her sleep

laughing on the outside,crying on the inside

2007-05-05T01:37:00.000-07:00

THE SADDEST THING in life is caring so much for someone and then one day when you look into their eyes and realize that they're gone.all is left is a stranger with a known name...

what does this true love mean when you can give it so many others...

sorry that you;re gone but the worst thing is i have no intention of pulling you back.
you;re sinking more and more into it but i have no right to comment so you have no right either to comment on me...

if i can go on with my life why can;t you.
if i can move you why can;t you
if i can pretend that i am together once more why can't you?
SO PULL TOGETHER YOUR ACT!
GET USED TO THE FACT THAT WE;RE DONE

when in love, you won;t go and calculate who give more to it and who put in more but at the end the one that give in more will be the one that will suffer so why bother giving in??

HOME IS JUST A NAME, IT''S REALLY IS JUST AN EMPTY SPACE FOR YOU TO SLEEP IN

i'm sick and i want my baby sis back with me but she has flown far far away...
this sickness can only be cured by a family...
i'm gone and i want my elder sis back but she has flown away with my baby sis
everyone gone and left me here alone...
my heart was never full to start with...
10 years have gone since baby went away.flown to be an angel in heaven when she was only 8 months...
SCREAMING OUT LOUD_____
COME BACK,I CAN;T BEAR IT BY MYSELF
COME BACK,BRING ALL MY LONGINGS BACK
BABY GIRL,COME BACK

the one that is left behind is the one that suffers the most

PS: IGNORE THIS POST...I;M DRIFTING AWAY

2007-05-04T10:48:00.000-07:00

ARRRGHHH...RELATHIONSHIP BETWEEN PPL ARE SO HARD TO UNDERSTAND
FRIENDS BEING THE MOST SENSITIVE...
what's going on with my life??my friends are going berserk and everyone is twisting the story around while i stay still...shd i go or shd i stay...saw her cry today the only thing i can say is: cheer up babe, i'll be there for you and take up by the hand like i always do...so if the sky fall,i;ll be there...hehe..
my grandmama coming backkkk...miss her so much...hehe..my grandmama is hot by the way...

poor moumou is sick today keep vomitting then have to force the food down her throat bcuz she dn want to eat...boo...i want moumou to be healthy so can go for picnic with her...my dearest darlie lahx...moumou get well,want to go for walk, then the vet say moumou have bad disgestive system...another boohoo!!

just realize that i did not sleep at my house for two days for the week.went to miie friend house to stay so the house was quiet since i stay alone.it's boring...but went her house and have fun and no one even realize i was not home not even the maid...

ALONE FOREVER @ HOME
HEHE,bemz ask me why i dn like to stay at home told him that it's boring
he came over so sgp just bcuz i say that it was boring so sweet.went st james power station party like siao on friday aka today...only reach home...saw some celebrity kinda cool to see them bt they a bit siao cause everyone was partying...

haiz.dn know what i writing anymore,so must let sleeping beauty go catch her slp...tata

YOU BROKE MY HEART

2007-04-28T03:52:00.000-07:00

TO YOU:
you told me it was to keep up appeareances and you really dn need her so you ask me to give you a chance and still go on being together.bcuz you dn like me and you loved me?you said that your whole life would be nothing without me and we could still go on and you only chose that girl bcuz your friends ask you to and now you say that your whole life is breaking to pieces...you were the one that cause it and do you think that i would be stupid enough to believe your lies. i gave us a chance after you ask for two years and now you're giving that chance.sorry but good opportunity don't come twice. your friends ask me to give it to you but i 'm telling you i dn care how popular you are but you broke the promise.remember under the sky.in case you forget: you said"i'll never let go,it's a promise" well now you broke it so i shall break mine.
IF YOU THINK THAT YOU'RE SUFFEING, DO YOU THINK I'LL BE BETTER OFF?

TO EVERYONE:
hehe,so long never update so sorry hor.in case you;re wondering the bloody red msg, don;t wonder...it's not for you.hehe.basically my life is from the last time i blog has turned upside down but hey i am getting used to it.my sec 3 life officially sucks, results is full of red lines.haha i think the teachers marking my work must use at least 1 red pen just for me cuz too many mistakes already.sorri to all the teacher marking my work./..haiz..now i am studying like mad for eveything,maths,..i hate maths why do they even exist.
i think the person that invent maths must hate human so much so as to invent maths to make them suffer.mwahaha...
i think maybe i can stand physics now and maye miss p not that bad lahx.sori ppl i still think she okay lohx.
anyway if i can like suffer this exam without wanting to burn my books ya..hehe a secret i highlight my hair red...hehe but only a bit so i can like still go to school..
know a lot of new friends lately all my juniors hehe cause they cum and learn skateboarding from our centre and i have to like teach them and they all damn pretty...
but it's fun to get over someone and have fun teaching ppl how to skateboard
WE'RE GOING OUT ON SUNDAY SO DN BOTHER US K?
hehe that msg meant for all the other skaters who want me to teach sorri lahx i'm booked for the next whole month so book me in advance.

went out with all the skate-guys today. so weird cause i am like the only gal in the group then got one gal ask me:
" are these all your boyfriends or can i ask them out?"
i was so shocked until one of the guys in my group-jeff said:
"yup,we are all dating her so you can buzz out"
our whole group ended up laughing like siao.then went for thai food..hehe thks bi for all the money you pay, who ask you rich what hehe...
sorri hor bemz but this picture of you too gay cannot stand it so must post:
DOES HE LOOK GAY?A BIT RITE?HEHE

Bemz is like one of the seniors in my skateboard team with me. So either bemz teach or I teach the juniors. But most girls usually want him lahx because he guy mahx also he quite cute lahx. (See bemz I so nice one) but he actually single because he married to his autocar, skateboarding and me loh because bemz say I can teach him how to do skate tricks so must marry me .diao!

Recently just really married to skateboarding and my music and bemz lohx because I can also learn how to do some tricks from him as well. Eh bemz if I cannot marry, you died hor, ruin my reputation as if I have any>_<

But took some pictures of my mum birthday present including one that I handmade with help from narita as well. The only thing bought is the round thingy..we drew the snowflakes!!nice rite!!

Then got picture of my pretty mum @ 37 years old. quite young!! This is taken 2 months before now her hair more boy-style but more stylish than the boys in our school k!!my oh-so pretty mummy. Anyway I love you…hehe.sounds like some guai kia..

NEWEST BAG FROM GUESSENOUGH OF PICTURES but now must go and study later mummy come and tickle me again..That;s for all ta-da ppl

i'm back

2006-09-29T03:28:00.000-07:00

hey...i'm back.yar that's right...so long never blog a bit lazy...anyway not going to say much lar...just recently stuff...wednesday went with jeremy to westmall to cut hair then the coslab suck like hell dn even know mohawk...then went pro-trim lor...we both ask the hair-dresser for discount lor,then succecced...so she got jeremy to cut this hairstyle so called popualr now..he did at first look a biot weird but now okay lar...while he cut hair, i nothing to do so just look at him and the hairdresser...then he go wash hair then i keep laughing cause his hair got towel like ahma..then i thought what was on his hair then i pull it lor turn out to be a towel thingy...hahaz...anyway we went out of the shop @ 5 somethign then we go watson and library talk crap till 8.freak siahx...in the way we walk to westmall but we all keep running away cause we all got see our friends then to avoid misunderstanding but o no avail...haiz...nvm lahx///anyway so jeremy have the most fashionable hair in the whole level and the hairdresser say that mohawk is out!!SO PPL WITH MOHAWK,YOUR'OUT!! jking only.oh yar,saw the 2t girls when we were there but didn't went to say hi...but we keep goinginto shops to listen to songs like sexyback and nelly something...jeremy fun to be out with...we got lots to talk...

...anyway just found out diyana added me so i dn care just added her...she freak lahx...dn care about her so much...anyway that day the confrontation boring lahx...went home after they still talking...
just wanna say that year ending and he's going...dn know how siah,he still not saying anything...but everyday see him staring and the same thing.i dn know how siah...if he dn say,hahaz too bad...
AFTER EXAM,RULES OUT!!
DYING HAIR,CUTTING HAIR ANYTHING THAT BREAK RULES THAN ME NOW.(AS THOUGH I DN BREAK RULES DAILY)ANYWAY TILL THEN I BE GOOD...
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tired

2006-08-16T01:01:00.000-07:00

haiz...so tired of that diyana thingy.i mean can she just like give up on trying to jio me.i told her alreadi lohx,i'm not interested.can dn be like a pest.i know u like to tell everyone you love me but no need you see me so happy rite.i know,u see me very happy to see someone you like but i dn feel happy lohx.i tell you i'm not going to like you.i know u scared to see me when you alone cause no one to shelter you to peep at me.can stop, i know you LOVE me but i dn lohx.eww,get a life can?dn be in my life.you're not even popular,just well-hated.

just wanna tell my babes who came into my life and things rocks for me.you gals know who u are.the babys who tag on my blog.anyway we all know diyana and her friends adore us and kiss the floor we walk on.well,to hell with her.anyway to my most craziest,prettiest,funniest,burp-bitch wife which i simply love to death.of course i can love her,she my bestie...and she better than diyana.ama,you really make my day, then we two can still go on without her one.who needs her?we all going to like stick it out.thanks for putting up with my childishness,craziness,wildness and layanging.really thanks lor,no one better than you.that's why we both going to be best friends for ever.heyhey,i hope we grow up soon.oh yar,burp less can?shikin also my babe,too cute for words and idayu,bintang,farah and drama gals.the ppl who put up with my adoration from diyana.
anyway...to the ppl who called me mrs xxx(censored).can you all like stop it cause i know he likes to stare at me but it's not my fault.so can don't call me that?well, had to undergo another day of stupid staring from but he is so much better than the other one who is like os digusting.did not see him for quite a long time(digusting one).so ermm,i am not married or anything to him can.i only tok to him once although he seem nice lahx but please stop
2nd class bitch.i dn know why lah but i just hate you lohx.i mean your every action pissed me off and i know that you know too.but who cares i only care what my real friends think.you're the one that always liek try to be popular but you're not okay.you think like oh i friends with popular gals then popualr,talk crap lahx.anyway i dn want to hide my feelings. i very enthu can?hahaz,very weird siah.when i wanna say hello,ppl dn want.i dn want to say hello,they say.like jeremy( think i spell corectly),my senior.anyway made new friends that day when i wave to this gal i dn know.nvm,better to have friends.no wonder ppl think i mad.nvmi like being mad.anyway bored.TML GOING SINGAPORE IDOL!@!!!bye ppl...

Romantic CompatibilityProvided by Astrology.com Pisces & Leo When Leo and Pisces join together in a love match, each partner enjoys the new perspective the other brings to life in general. Leo is a strong and assertive Sign, being free to do what they want and taking command of their surroundings. Pisces is quieter and more reserved and introspective. In many ways the two are polar opposites, yet both are dreamers at heart. When they care for one another, they each fill the other's voids and have a caring, mutually beneficial relationship. Leo is a natural leader and in a relationship with Pisces often becomes the guardian of their weaker partner. Pisces, in turn, gives Leo the audience they need for their ambitions and social performances. Pisces is a Sign that, like Water, fills whatever container it is poured into. Pisces tends to give themselves over to their love match; a kind heart allows The Fish to know Leo in a way that many other Signs don't. Leo's straight forwardness coupled with that doesn't pass into conceit -- the way Leo alone might act -- and isn't overly shy, like Pisces alone may be. Leo is ruled by The Sun and Pisces is ruled by the Planet Jupiter. Pisces is also ruled by Neptune. The Sun gives out light, life and a focus on the Self to the Leo-Pisces relationship. Neptune is about big pictures, ideas and illusions; but it's also involved with disillusion and fantasy. Leo can help Pisces turn fantasies into realities. Neptune works through Pisces by softening Leo's sometimes self-centered and abrupt actions, channeling their energy into a more creative and fruitful outlet. Leo is a Fire Sign and Pisces is a Water Sign. These two can be very happy and progressive if they recognize the other's needs, using introspection and creative ambition to tend to matters of the heart. Pisces can help Leo learn to be humble and to think of the needs of others, while Leo teaches Pisces to go out into the world and begin to loosen up a bit. But Pisces can be too emotional, too much Water dampening Leo's enthusiasm. Conversely, too much Fire can boil the Water and leave Pisces emotionally burned. Leo and Pisces must establish effective communication in order to ensure their balance is maintained. Leo is a Fixed Sign and Pisces is a Mutable Sign. Pisces doesn't serve well as the boss. They get their greatest satisfaction from bettering the universe, starting with their partner. Leo, on the other hand, comes up with ideas in the first place and suggests little changes to be made here and there in the relationship. What's the best aspect of the Leo-Pisces relationship? It's their receptiveness to one another's teachings. Pisces shows Leo how to be sensitive and care, and Leo teaches Pisces to make their dreams happen rather than sitting on them. Their ability provide what the other needs makes theirs a truly mutual relationship.

babez

2006-08-15T02:57:00.000-07:00

DIYANA BTE SA'IT
yar bitch,this is for u and your damn ass ugly friends onli...read on
u know u have a weird problem.you're the scaredy cat.you're the one that runs away everytime u alone without ur fucking friends and you wanna one on one.come on ,is that ur best??oh yar by the way if you think by writing malay i can't read.bitch,you're so wrong.and you think you can insult in malay i think it's because you did not dare to write in english and whore why didn;t you leave a name or maybe your friends didn't.your friends;afifah,anira and all that crappo friends u have.at least i have the guts to write on my blog with my name.tell you this gal i'm not afraid of you cause unlike you i can stand perfectly on my own without having to run away.you on the other hand is so weak and if you say you are not hankering around naz then why are u always like trying to get his attention? anyway bitch,he said that you're not his so dream on on getting he back.you got nothing to spare,i mean no boobs,rabbit teeth and everyone know you try so hard to copy afidah fine,you shall always be a copy-cat afidah,and you suck at copying...what kind of hair is that.you know the boobs things,well if you never wear,ppl wouldn't go around spreading it.so that's your own fault.oh yar there one thing i admire about you,that's is you always manage to laugh at your own fucking bad points like fake breast i think because u know u really have no breast and rabbit teeth.well, too bad bitch.go on living with that freak face of yours since it;s yours to own for your whole life.anyway you know u look fucking ugly.even a pig wins you.you know u can be the scaredy cat for all i care.but if you didn't come and like disturb me and my friends first,i would have leave you alone.but you did the wrong thing with messing with me.did anyone tell u that i am not your typical gal k?i can kick-ass too and i am not afraid to kick yours.so get it,you can be a bitch for all i care but dn get in my way anymore.if you do,you never know what i can do.dn believe,ask my class..
in simple,why are u on my blog anyway...thanks for letting me know u adore me so much because u will only be on my blog if you love me or you're my friends.since you not my friends,i think you love me.but sorry honey,i dn go for lesbians especially a ugly,rabbit teeth,fake boobs scaredy cat like you.too bad, i just turn you down,so dn bother me can?i am like not interested in you.

i so done with bitches

2006-07-20T04:23:00.000-07:00

GET OUT OF MY LIFE...DN BOTHER ME...YOUR PRESENCE IN THIS WORLD IS ALREADY VERY POLLUTING(this blog contains foul and things i dn usually write)
Whew...i finally got that off my chest and let me WARN the people who are going to continue reading this entry. you guys better dn freak out at the things and the people i am going to see...because my frenz always say it's bad to bottle things up.so i am like telling to one person,that my blog and who cares who read it then..
anyway let ME have the honor of introducing you to two bitches/pai kias wannabe and they never made it,
let get the thing started ,shall we?
i guess everyone know diyana or watever her name is spelled.in case you didn't, she a fake gal form 1e3.everything she has is fake.and she has this wannabe pai kia gangs who act like they are so popular but turn out the whole sec 2 malay ppl hate them.(well,at least some of them).she used to think the gal who shall not be named very easily to be bullied so one day she so fucking stupid came to our table and pretend to like look down on her but alas the gal who shall not be named shouted: WHAT IS YOUR PROBLEM?"then she went off and the rest were like shocked...me and my methane producing frenz went after her and after a while we all came back to the table and decide to pay-back.while she was walking away,i grabbed a whole chunk of ice and threw it at her.Bull-eyes babe...the other time she saw me and that gal again walk by and she try to bang to me but too bad,bitch.the gal pushed me to pushed you and i pushed you damn hard and wat did you shout after me or rather ur frenz:babi so i shouted babi then you cb lahx...and you know wat that day you mess with me on the wrong time so i did handsign and you were scared and ran away.so get it from me,push-up-bra...i dn fuckinging care that you read this blog cause i said it to your face so many times before.and if you ever happen to see this,why were u on my blog??sicko...and in case you didn't know diyana is someone ex and someone god sister.tell you this gal,he never want you back because you are getting worse by the day,dn mess with me but i know u dn dare to now cause you are avoiding m...hahaz good for you.GET LOST PUSH-UP-BRA
Next is this gal from my drama club and a junior who is just like diyana.she is a copy-cat of everything.last week she saw me wearing a hair band.guess what she got one too...then me and shikin were lao po and lao gong mahx.so we all sit together and talk all that crap.then she saw go and grab a gal and dod the same things we did.HELLO,no originality!then she had on this fakey voice that she used everytime and did i mention that she is a flirt which never works cause she had a very very long skirt because she fold very ugly and a hairstyle that so not original.and she had the same bag as me hello.come on gal can u like get on with yuor life and stop being a copy-cat
OKAY,I'M DONE WITH THE BITCH THINGS.JUDGE THEM AND YOU GET THE SAME JUDGEMENT I GET TOO...
DRAMA WAS HELL TODAY.I MEAN WE ALL PRACTICE AND THAT MS KOH OR WHATVEVER HER NAME WAS,SHE SUCKS,SHE BIASED AND SHE EVIL.WE WERE LIKE PRATICING SO HARD TODAY THEN WHEN WE ALL WERE ROUNDING OFF THE THINGY ALREADY AND EVERYONE WAS LIKE DISCUSSING WAT CAN BE done then we were like can we sing a song cause it's like so serious.so we were like auditioning then mr samuie said i kena lahx then that koh woman say want chidlish or wth so farhana BITCH ASS GAL got chosen.fuck her bloody ass.i meant farhana.but her voice honestly suck.the whole drama gals eg.the gals hate her.she such a bitch .so i am like dn want to go for drama now because of her.then mr samuie can you please make my life easier by not clashing my schedule.i already helped you do things but i am not the president.shunji,aiysah and vencia.it's not i dn want to do but it's a bit weird that i am doing them.okay...anyway today offically suck. he stay back today and i saw him*(actually both of them)hahaz but we all saw this guy my lao po like then he got gf mahx so she heart-brokem(as if)then we all help her to secretly tak epicture of him lahx.i stand at the side and the other gal pretenfd take my picture while actuually is taking his...hahaz,,anway ppl comment on the bitches things.and one few bitches are ppl who did something wrong to you and pretend they dn care

so long hello

2006-07-11T02:38:00.000-07:00

HELLLOOOOOOO.....

That the only thing i say after never update for so long.but i mean what the point because no one reads maybe it's boring...annnnywae cut the crap just going to say what i so-called so today.
an ambulance came to school today...dotz,that time it came because some sec 3 guy go and hit meng meng best friend on the head with the dustpan then blood....so digusting and meng meng sat next to me after recess...he was so scary because he was not speaking and everything and after a while i saw..."BLOOD STAIN" on his shirt then he also see then try to clean lahx then i saw, give him wet tissue lohx.super scary...anyway today the ambulance came today because this sec 4 guy called justin was playing with the pole(i think netball) then the pole fell down and CUT HIS FINGER...his middle finger.it was like eww...it dropped off at most top section of your finger.so eww...digusting.they put the finger into a plastic bag and off he went.the finger got vein and everything...eww...i wanna puke then this guy go and take video of the finger thingy...sick siah...he filmed the finger all around.so ppl who want to see full details go find edward or something.sec2 de....SO is the hospital so good friends with our school
SO THIS IS SOMETHING I NEED EVERYONE TO COMMENT ON..
Q: IF ONE IS POPULAR,DOES THAT MEAN THE WHOLE WORLD IS AT THEIR FEET
i mean take an example you found a perfect spot and the popular came and ask u to move away and u expected to do it.they get away with everything.hello is it fair...anyway that's the end of my blog..promise i update and remember to comment

shopping hit the town

2006-05-17T19:37:00.000-07:00

siah lah...the past two days are the most horrible and unlucky days of the week but i still manage to have some fun as here is what happens to me...
tuesday...
th course where we attend was okay lahx...at least it was better than last time one...this one more actions and games but more violent...not to mention the violent scene and ppl screaming at each other...apparently this kelvin guy(the one wit the loudhailer) was scolded by me..hahaz why?because i was sitting right in front of me and he is screaming into the speaker so i told him to put it up then he sae he was wearing black hot mahx so i sae that'ur shirt not ours....hahaz...he was so busted...anyway we didn't get to see GILLIAN last time crush" clarence" from the course...poor gal,must be so upset but never mind at least still got clarence jeans of 2e5 mahx...hor,zhiqi..."so cute"...
okae never mind after the course me,ama,rita and yuhsuan went to my zinnia plant there then we went to he toilet mahx...and after toilet as we were going down the stairs,we all stopped for a while cause tired mahx...so ama sat on the stairs and rita and yuhuan was on one side on the stair and i was on the handle and was going to slide down then i dn know why turn to ama and sing"googbye my love,it's time to die"...dotz..that was okay until i realize that a 3t1 guy heard it and i sang it to his face...opps...embarrassed...my face froze in action and he went up the stairs shaking his head...omigod...malu!!i can not believe this happen again and this time worse....last time it was to this popular guy...i was just streching then i sang to yuying mahx...i sang" oh my pretty pretty boy,i love you" and guess what happens i turn towards the window i saw him staring at me cause he heard and some ppl sae and just sae" you die already..." then i was like wth...dn care...anyway went with them to heeren shop for shopping for yuhsuan...found nothing there but we went foodcourt and saw that time the 4t1 who scold alex for netball one then she dn know sae what but she sae luckily we are not ah lians...dotz...should i be glad or sad?
after that we went bugis finally found something and we went took neoprints///the machine there rocks....hehez...not to mention how fun it was..anyway we spent the whole mrt back talking...but something happen when we were going to bugis...cause the mrt was crowded then we all squuezed in mahx then got this couple behimd me thensuddenly yu hsuan ask me see something so i turn and my hair almost hit the gal behind me and she was like "ahh" to her bf and narita saw then wanted to scold me so she sae: ehh..cia mei.." before she could finish i turn and slap her face with my hair then she got hysterical and started a bit louder so i turn again and slap her(accident) then she go crazy...i had to cover her mouth with her face...then we started laughing like mad...then go back home saw this guy with a really cool skateboard...then me jealous mahx so i was like so wat lor...they the guy abt my age lahx...heard and went to the other side and skateboard his trick and keep staring at us then i was so busted...arrgghhh...i sae hmp..intermediate onli...shiow off...blahhhhh....stupid guy anyway went home///
17MAY
wth...stupid leg...yesterday my guardian son bang into me while i was teaching him skateboarding so back and leg hurt and had to wait for eveyone to go then i can go,.,poor ama become my escort,,,and that stupid bazaar stupid desmond keep perstering me to buy in the end i hop away...hyahaz...then had to go for drama meeting...omigod...3 weeks left must hurry we will win one gb...count on us!!!
18may
WENT TO jurong library with jingyi,yuhsuan,yuying,amanda,yanjing,wangqing....all we did was make a mess og the library with lots and lots of book....hahaz...poor librarian...
went to westmall later to meet someone and that evil person forget all about it...arrgh...evil revenge on herl...must do...die man tml results i be lucky if i survive,,god blesss...
finally on elong entry so someone pls read....

yoz...

2006-05-03T05:08:00.000-07:00

got a brand new blog skin...
kind of look like a suicide skin and like i gothic or what
but truth is i like it a lot...
okae so fine damn stupid exams are here again to wat?
kill our brain cells,clean our polluted mind(are u sure they're not worsening it?),waste memory spaces...for ppl like ME who never open textbook unless needed pr when i feel like it exam is like camp once more...and it's the army camp...
so we all got this zinnia thing going on and we(me,suxin,yunqi)planted it on the day after labour day...can u imagine our hands full of top soil,burn soil,water and get this maunre...which is basically the infamous cow shit!what worse to come is the lousy gloves which break so our hands and fingernails are full of them.so much for protection...
so the planting part was fine but we DO NOT have enough equipment hence it has to be share,,,and to make OUR life simpler,we borrowed everything from kenneth (2e1) who keep saying f**king this and that.the problem is he sounded like one of my friend who make it sound like parking so it's parking you and parking them?and nobody gets what he say...
hey but at the end of the day our pot came out the best according to that miss dianah...yishun didn't come wonder why?
went to macdonalds todae to so-called revise science and i met with a evil sec1 who told me this...look at the conversation below...pink:me...black:her
ehh...can u stop going around him(who shall not be named)
excuse me?
who u think u are?
do i know you?
i dn care just dn go around him anymore
who do you think u are to order me
u f**ker...
i do not wish to talk to a girl who only know how to use vulgarity
wtf...why u insulting me?
i am not...i am merely speaking to a low iq girl that's all
wtf(more vuglar)...
you know what i do not want to associate my self with you anymore
(vuglar and more vuglar)just dn go around him anymore
let me tell you i do not know him and certainly do not want to go near him
noo...wait u break his heart if you do so
(i walk off)
she shouting vuglar behind her
end of conversation
is she weird or what?first u tell me to back off this guy i dn like then i sae i will u told me not to back off in case i break his heart????what the hell are u talking about!!i politely request that girl to rethink her sentences...what more that guy is an idiot why should i go around him??
can sec 1 get more ruder than this??

what happening??

2006-04-25T05:40:00.001-07:00

what going on?
what becoming of my life?
who is the one in charge of it?
Friends are changing , attitudes are changing , style are changings , fate are changing ...
you guys are like changing isit something wrong or what?dn just keep it to yourself i dn care who;s been badmouthing me but i dn really wanna know because it's not my problem.just wanna say it ur own eyes you see and the truth won't lie...(to my mis...independent gal)
Is there a barrier or taboo that i have broken?why does our friendship that seems to be so fantanstic seems so fragile now? maybe you still are living in the past of that event but you claimed to have moved on...the silence is closing in on us each time and you seems to find it good that i lose the ability to communicate with you.if you really want to tell me anything just do...i hate to be living in suspense...just sae what's wrong between us? i told you that day i have no idea what came over me...but you can't seem to forget that.that seems like your onli impression of me onwards.maybe the reason i acted like that is something i dn know...(you know who)
What in the world is wrong with you? how can a guy be so petty?you never seem to get angry at others for doing the same thing but you seems to be at me...is it because i was the first one do it?
but you know i mean no harm rite?i did what i can do already so if you want more just sae it...
( the petty person)
enough of the personal messgae...my life is changing so much...so of you become colder and further away(my wives) and some of you becoming closer...the lit test todae was fine finally i can pass a lit test already...i dn want to hear any rumours about her already stop it you ppl she not so bad...todae science was gruesome...apparently you have to stick something into the vagina then slice through the baby and suck it out...eww...and i thought i wanna take bio...apparently in the past it was sticking a machine in and crush it head then pull it out...eww why does it have to be so digusting...and that story abt that girl abort 6 times then cannot give birth...i mean she deserve because why should the 7th one be born while the other 6 dies...it not like 6 innocent life should die and spare the 7th...it;s her retribution...i didn't mean to be mean but hey it's the truth///why should 6 life exchange for one?
the zinnia planting thing was quite okay todae and our supervisior wit a name called " yishun"?
dn know but that was what that lady sae it was so a biology student became our supervisior...weird but he seems so ah beng hahaz...his face very long so we nicknamed him horse....then me and suxin and yunqi dicuss abt the time for watering plant then got an irritating security guard keep disturbing us and we were answering back.good he very annoying leh...then got one more irrtating guy come and bother us for his girl so i shoo him off with an evil stare...hahaz good,he nosiy....but they quite okae together lahx...
so must bless them de not like some ppl curse them lohx...hope she never hear of the things they sae...so what can we sae except god bless...hahaz
damn ass lame

what happening??

2006-04-25T05:40:00.000-07:00

COME BAKC

2006-04-03T04:18:00.000-07:00

YOU NEVER KNEW MY FEARS...THAT'S WHY YOU ENVY ME.YOU NEVER EXPERIENCE WHAT I BEEN THROUGH.THAT'S WHY YOU WANT MY LIFE.YOU NEVER LOST YOUR FAMILY BEFORE.THAT'S WHY YOU THINK MY WORLD PERFECT.IF YOU HAD KNOW THE LIFE I BEEN THROUGH,YOU BE WISHING YOU NEVER HAVE TO BE ME.
FEAR DIDN'T COME TO MY LIFE,I WAS BORN WITH FEAR AND THE WILL TO SURVIVE IN THE DARKEST NIGHTMARE.YOU MIGHT THINK I AM THE CHEERFUL GAL IN YOUR CLASS/SCHOOL BUT WHAT LIES UNDERNEATH IS BANNED TO ALL...
YOU MIGHT THINK YOU KNOW ME INSIDE OUT,BUT TRUTH IS DO YOU REALLY?
DO YOU KNOW WHAT I CAN DO,WHAT I SUFFER,WHAT I LIVE? YOU DON'T BECAUSE I PACKAGE MYSELF WITH WALLS...IRON AND YOU NEVER KNOW ME UNTIL THE DAY I LET YOU IN...
DID YOU KNOW THAT I CAN COOK AND BAKE?DID YOU KNOW I HAVE BEEN SKATE-BOARDING FOR 5 YEARS?DID YOU KNOW THAT I CAN SEW?DID YOU KNOW I A MIXED-BLOOD?DID YOU KNOW THAT I USED TO HAVE SISTERS?DID YOU KNOW MY BEST FRIENDS ARE GUYS?DID YOU KNOW I VOLUNTEER AT THE HOSPITAL?DID YOU KNOW I NEVER LIKED ANYONE BEFORE?DID YOU NOW I GIVE ADVICE TO THOSE PPL?
YOU PPL SO CALLED AS MY CLASSMATES FOR 1AND MORE YEARS DN KNOW...BECAUSE SOME OF YOU NEVER CARE MORE.YOU LOOK ON THE OUTSIDE.YOU PPL ARE FAKERS THE BEST OF THE ACTORS.YOU THINK YOU ARE ALL SO PERFECT BUT ARE YOU REALLY?YOU PRETENDED TO CARE ABOUT OTHERS BUT IT'S JUST POLITNESS?BECAUSE DEEP INSIDE YOU DN CARE.YOUR LIFE ABOUT URSELF AND YOU DN CARE TO GIVE...JUST TAKE...NO OFFENCE TO THOSE BUT THIS ONLY APPLY TO THOSE WHO KNOW WHO THEY ARE LIKE THE CA...BUT SOME OF YOU REALLY CARE LIKE RITA...THOSE ARE DAMN REAL NICE PPL WHO DESERVES THE REAL POPULAR CROWN...
ANYWAY I HATE THIS FESTIVAL...QINGMING JIE...WHERE YOU ARE SUPPOSED TO PRAY TO THE DEATH...I DN WANT IT,I WANT THIS THING TO GO AWAY.I DN WANNA SEE THEM CRY AND I DN KNOW WHAT TO DO...MY TEARS DN SEEM TO DROP.IT NEVER DID...THE BURNING AND THE PRAYING IS TOO HORRIBLE FOR ME. MAYBE THE PAIN IS STILL THERE AFTER 10 YEARS.MAYBE I NEVER GET OVER IT YET I MUST GET OVER IT SOON. IF I BREAK DOWN.WE PERISH.I MUST BE STRONG.I DIDN'T CHOOSE TO BE STRONG,I WAS FORCED TO.I FIND THINGS LIKE SIBLINGS LOVE MOST TREASURING MAYBE IT'S BECAUSE I USED TO HAVE IT BUT THE HOLY PERSON WE CALL GOD TOOK THEM AWAY...
LIFE AIN'T FAIR THAT'S WHY I STILL BEARING BUT SOME DAY I KNOW I BURST...

leo and pisces....me and him

2006-03-22T03:38:00.000-08:00

my sign...
PISCES WOMANShe likes to be in a dream world than to be in reality. She is weak and sensitive when it's come to "Love". She can cry if her best friend is breaking up, and she can be over excited when her friend gets a new boy friend who is a good looking and rich even it is nothing concerned her at all. You might be surprise to see that she is shy just because she is in love. More or less it will be in Pisces woman. She loves small animal and gifted in training animals.She has sixth senses and she can guess what will happen next, it's her nature. Even she has a good sixth senses, she can not pick or foreseen her own choice of lover. She can not tell if she meet a sincere guy or a one night stand guy.She likes to buy and pick her own cloths. She likes to dress cute and be cute. Pisces woman tend to be a good looking woman and she has a nice skin. Her hands and feet are small and soft. Pisces woman loves to shop for shoes as if she collects them. She is a hot lady that everyone wants her. Whether she has a man in her life or not , she will never try to over powered any man. It's not even in her thought.She thinks man can handle things better, and she will make her man feel that way. She is an easy going person, so being with her is easy. She is a confident woman and likes to make people who stay with her happy. She knows how to please and how to comfort a man. If som ething is wrong, she will try to make other people belief that it's must be because of someone else, not because of her love one. She will not push her man to be ambition but to make him feel like he should be happy with the way he is now. She is happy with you for what you are now.A Pisces woman , if she has a bad childhood, she will always remember it and it will make her a very unhappy person. She will pity herself and feel sorry for herself. She tends to hurt herself with out knowing it and so vulnerable to drugs (real drugs or just sleeping pills). She has many choices and you can never tell which path she going to take. If you love her , then hold her tight because she never knows why she did what she did or what she will do next.A complex character. You may think she is a shy innocent type and can not hurt anyone, then you are wrong. You might think she is a fragile person who needs protection, wrong again. She has been through a lot, a tough cookie. She is a dreamer and love the word "Love", so she is the type who will buy gift for anyone for any occasion, especially if it is a gift for wedding or an anniversary even for someone who she does not know so well.Be very careful if fall in love with Pisces woman. She can be a total different person before and after. She can be an angle before and later a witch, but everyone is not perfect, right? She will be soft and gentle most of the time, so not to worry. She is emotional and extremely sensitive when she frequently got hurt. She is the type who can cry her heart out.She can have a secret fear inside, when she says she does not need anyone. She badly needs someone to protect her, but sometimes she can hide that feeling by being stubborn. She likes to hide her shyness and her weakness from her enemy. She does not like to follow any fixed rules. She can be a good housewife if you know how to handle her.Many men will ask to marry her because she is a 100% woman. If she wants to be sweet, she is a real angles.

my opposite attract is a leo...older than me...
He likes to comb his hair back ward, open his forehead showing a dignify facial __expression. His eyes is sparkle, but slightly showing laziness. He walks firmly and slowly like a lion, confident and ego proud. Outside, you may think he is kind and gentle person, but inside he is a strong and secure person. If he is frighten, he will re-act and respond right away. His words always seem normal but mostly imply "order and demanding". He will not talk fast, or can not talk fast, neither walk fast. In a crowd or at work he will act normally, but not for long you will see him standing out of the crowd and be a center of attention with his words, or his action.You might think he is a shy guy, but deep down inside he wants to power over his family and his friends. He just waits for that right moment. Do not take what is his, and do not order him, or else you will see a fierce lion. He respects elderly and senior, but will never bow down and accept like a looser fo r he will rather die than loose his dignity.He talks bluntly even on an occasion that he should not say such thing. He is a compassionate guy and always look at other people on a bright side. He likes people to listen to him. Even he has such a blunt and bold personality, he could easily reach his goal without making any enemy.Once disagree with him on something, he can be very up set like a rainy storm on a summer day. It will only last a short time, then he will be back a cheery merry person again. He is a bright and witty guy, and he will not put any efforts on something that he thinks it will not work and waste his energy. He is a good planner and can well manage his job assigned. When hegives order, he expect them to be carry out exactly. He is the leader type that the followers love.He can give other people advice and solve problems for other people well, except his own mess. He can be easily hurt by other peo ple especially if you do not trust or respect his ability. You could compliment him sometimes and make this lion be your kitty with no difficulty. He is not a good judge for he listen to many people and tend to belief all sides.You can hardly see a Leo man with no woman by his side. If you see him alone, he could already have a love one in his heart, or just broken up with one. Because he is very proud, he can change many girl friends. He will do many things for the woman he loves, but loosing his face is not one of them. Leo man can not live without love , because for him Love is a ray of Light.He likes people to rely on him, it's make him feels "in power". He may complaint if he is asked for favor, but deep inside he is happy that you asked him. If you offer to help him , he will refuse you right away.When he is broke , he can find money still. He is not careful with his way of spending for he has fun with spendin g money and happy to buy what he likes. He lets other people borrow money from him easily even if he has no money, he will run to his friend to borrow money for you. He likes first class , first quality of everything.He can work hard like a mad dog, and sometimes can be lazy like a lazy sleepy cat. When he works, he is very serious . When he parties, he can be aparty animal. If he ask you out, you will sure have a fun and jolly time.He will take chance with his love life, so if you know how to handle him, you will win. If he is your love one, it won't be a romance novel. You have to be ready to calm him down when he over reacts to small matters becauseyour cool stability will control and ease his mood. If you can not handle or understand him, your relationship will be like a demolition zone, a on and off relationship till all your friends tired to hear about your breaking up and making up.Beauty is always in the ey es of the lion. You have to be dignify to walk with the lion king. Your looks is part of his image and ego and he is very proud about it too. If you want his attention the first time you meet, you better be astounding attractive. If you have a first conversation with him, you have to show him how much you adore his thinking. He like s to talk and not knowing that he likes to talk about himself.

LEO AND PISCES
Romance reigns supreme when Leo girl teams up with Pisces boy. Notes in your locker, e-greetings, flowers and funny cell phone messages are all to be expected from your adoring Fish. Just be sure to return the favor once and awhile, and you'll be beyond happy!
You share: a love of water, music, and the finer things in life. Even if you're only heading out for a picnic at the beach, there will be no dearth of romance. In Leo boy, Pisces girl could have a lifelong friend and confidante-exactly the kind of relationship that fills you with bliss!
Pisces ladies love to poke fun & giggle at human foibles, but Leo has enough of them to keep her in stitches. She will lead this lion around by his collar, pull his strings, push his buttons and crack the whip when necessary. This big cat will get as soppy as a puppy dog. Then, one day, he will observe her giggles and suddenly understand what they mean. Poached fish will be on the menu that night ...
Although this is a combination of opposites, it can work surprisingly well. Leo will help to boost Pisces' confidence, and perhaps make him a little more practical. The Piscean, on the other hand, will open Leo up to the more sensitive side of his nature. Both partners must ensure that the relationship does not become imbalanced,
Piscean women are full of mystery. They have a depth and allure that is difficult to pin down. Their intuitive grasp of the feelings of others and their strong powers of intuition make them extremely sensitive to the moods and feelings of the people around them. They are not easy to deceive.
While they are very easy-going, their extreme sensitivity means that they will often become upset over comments that would have no effect on other people. Instead of arguing, they become depressed, and may even burst into tears.
Pisceans fall in love more quickly than most other signs. While they appreciate a delicate approach, they warm up emotionally much more quickly than others. Despite this, their feelings are long-lasting, and they are loyal. They expect the same degree of loyalty from their partners, and soon become jealous if they suspect them to be unfaithful.
They particularly need a partner whom they can respect, and whom they can lean on for emotional support. This person should respect their intelligence and their judgement, but at the same time, be able to provide direction and support when they are down.
In marriage, the Piscean is easy-going. Pisceans need a firm home-base, and will put a lot of energy into making their home as pleasant and comfortable as possible.

2006-03-09T01:48:00.000-08:00

RAIN OUTSIDE MY WINDOW POURING DOWN...
WHAT NOW YOU'RE GONE I'M SORRY IT'S MY FAULT
what crap is this that i'm writing?
maybe because i am losing my mind...
today is bored to the T...
boring school,sick,stupid grades and the stupid guys in my life...
i mean not anyone know about them because i really dn want to let the whole world know or i be hate because those guys are really damn...
k,quit the crap i saying and i really wanna whine...
first in the canteen i saw samuie and he told me i won't be going for the choir thing and i was like wth...
then never mind after the whole stupid thing got lessons and have to rush out a script and i really hate it...
chinese class,i got bullied by gillian because she was acting like a ... and in the end i ignored it and in the end make her laugh,good then after the whole thing we got back our result slip which was really weird...
almost everyone failed literature because no one reall bother to hand in his crap homework and when i got the result i almost want to laugh out loud because my grades had from a a1 become a F9 and i was like fine who cares for him anyway?
then after school went to the canteen saw him with this whole bunch of girls then saw me immediately look concerned and i was like whatever...
went with narita to jurong wast library and rain start pouring and i was so glad because it means heaven is crying for me so i need not waste my tears.
sometimes i ask myself this question: is it time for me to let him into my life?
so,does anyone have thge answer help this blur queen over here

i'm sorry

2006-03-01T05:17:00.000-08:00

i want you to know that gal wasn't me...that gal that sprouted all those words was just a bitch you never know...i am sorry because have no idea why did i suddenly say those stuff and i dn know what come over me but i really really need you to believe that i dn mean it.i can't lose someone like you.you ask me to forget about it but i can't.let face it there will always be this remebrance about this thing around us. i have no idea how to face you and i dn want to. i mean you are one of the few that cheers me up when i am and you might just know the real me. i not the person i try just now to be maybe i thought you were that kind of person who can jokes about such stuff. i know i touch a sore spot but i try to reverse it but i know it's too late. just dn hate me and make me do that thing again and do you know if the birthday gal cry on her birthday is very unlucky. dn make it happen,k?
okae enough of that stuff and let just sae about todae...life goes downhile when d&t start because he saw me and his friend call and sae sumthing to me but he slaps his friends.stop it,can?if you want to say something to me just do it dn give me those hints or what signals. i am like blur queen okay and specially when you have all those gals idolising you like king just tell you straight, your signals really came unclear.someday you stare and tok to me.you blush and smile and someday you just show that attitude and star. what's ur problem? i know you are popular but that's doesn't mean you can make my life unclear. i hate it,you just say and you might get the chance. but you don't,forget it.i hate it when you always evolve around me for no reason...what are you trying to do? say it out,dude!i not always that cheerful gal coming to school singing. i have my moods and you know it,just do it...who knows maybe if you dn i ight think you are gay.i hear my friends saying they idolised you all the time and the hot bod thing bu twhat i really want to shout at them sometiems is"why you tell me?i am not liking him?"i dn know you may be one of the most sought after senior in the school but your attitude sucks and you really flirt...think about it...
i have no idea what is coming over me today just feel like i want to pour it out after today. i want to scream it out...i hate unclear signals...dn evolve around me and let me know you exist but no actions. i dn care even though you are really a cute guy just say it

wth,....

2006-02-13T02:58:00.000-08:00

what a day...
went to causeway point with yu hsuan to buy present...
we walk a long time before finally decided on one then just when we went in the door of causeway,i already saw one of my primary school mates then throughout the whole trip i saw about 7 of my classmates...they changed so much...then when we were planing to go home,i remember that i have not bought a box for the present so have to go to mini toons to buy...UNFORTUNATELY, i saw li bin-narita senior...in cause u guys dn know abt the embarassing incident that happen, go back to the previous blog....
actually at first i never notice him one but then i saw a hair and bag that look like someone familiar so i look closely...wth,really him....i was thinking like why so suai...go so far already still can met someone i know... actually he never saw us until his friend saw us then to make sure also like me look closely...then i quickly take my stuff and paid and went away...
then me and yu hsuan went to the bus stop saw my classmate again...
so went on the stupid bus went to school for narita...actually i wanted to go home but i rememebr i promise narita i go so i went in the end waited stupidly for 20mins for her andwent home...todae is so boring...i dn want to update anymore...anyway looking forward to tml valentine day...bringing chocolate to school for everyone!!look forward to exchanging presents with yu hsuan!!bye!!happy valentine every one

2006-02-08T04:06:00.000-08:00

PLEASE DN STARE ANYMORE...YOU KNOW WHAT IS RUDE??
okae...finally i updating my blog already because so many aunties complain...
aiyah basically nothing in my life is out of the ordinary...
so what's the point of writing rite??
oh yar,first must complain about the taxis service...wait for so long for a stupid cab and not one stop then called the stupid company and then we sae need it urgently and she sae: please hold on, your service is still processing"...wth...for so long...they understand what is urgently or not??
kk,,,todae go school find narita to go library and on the way,kena stare cause of the shoes thing...
ppl walk one whole round to see the shoes ..i mean it's just shoes...
oh yar,something happen in the bus todae,so pai seh....
kk...me, belinda and narita was in the bus then narita went to sit in the other seat then because before we board the bus we were all crazy saying all the nurses and doctor all watch porn daily cause they wash naked babies...then we were talking about butt lahx...so anyway i said to narita to come and sit with us but she sit opposite her so i sae" narita,your butt isn't really that small, you know?" then unfortunately this sec 5 guy named li bin or something walked by and he heard it and stared at me like weirdly so i thought he thought i sae him...so i quickly sae" sorry, i wasn;t saying your butt!" then after isae it, it's suddenly seems very weird so i laugh then he sae: i know you wans't saying me..." oh my god, i was so embarrassed like hell!!
then he got off the same bus-stop as me and narita and i was like embarrassed like hell cause we were still talking about jokes abt butt...then very unluckythe bus we just aboarded broke down so we were damn lucky...
then narita kena me sae her got " mid-year crisis" hahaz...really funny....
then todae gabriel kena bashed cause it's his birhtday...good.. because he always sae i short...hahaz....he is very unlucky...
haiyah,,,nothing to sae anymore..updating sometime later lahx...

bye bye for now....

what happened??

2006-01-19T01:54:00.000-08:00

what just happened??

such a weird thing...

me and narita at jurong east library revising for our studies when we heard this shattering sound....and guess what!
the glass panel on one of the railing near the escalator at the third floor broke and glass shattered all over down to the first floor! coincidentally we were at the third floor so we went to see what happened lahx...(typical singapore students...kaypoh one)
then the security guard came up to see what happened and they stopped the escalator to prevent ppl stepping on the glass and scared the glass would hit the escalator thingy lohx...luckily no one was hurt siah...
this all happened just five minutes ago at 5:50pm,19/01/06...
at first narita thought terrorist attack...so siao
i thought they were doing renovation when i heard ppl talk loudily in the library(against the rules and they were all librarians....set bad example)
now they all cleaning up the mess lohx...
the glass actually look like crystal,quite nice one lohx...maybe can take as souvenoir...
if got newspaper come then we can sae our school lohx...promote the school...so many ppl now at the "crime scene"....
who is the culprit huh?narita think it's too cold so glass contract hence too tight so break lohx...dunno lahx...
everyone is confused over the glass thingy...maybe need call police...hahaz...all the office staff come out to clean and investigate...maybe we should too!!
now then i know that got so many staff in library...

hiiie...

2006-01-05T23:02:00.000-08:00

HIIE...
I'M BACK...
WITH MY STORIES AND SONGS...
NEW ON THE BLOCK...PUSSY CAT DOLLS DONCHA...

hey guys...this is my first entry this year...so i amsure going to make it long///

k,during the holidays it was a world tour frantic...
DN hate me cause you ain't miie...
i went to the whole of europe,germany,korea,japan,hongkong,america,australia....just a whole world tour...went with my family and we were like just going on a frantic shopping trip...
Barneys,Louis vitton,Levis,Oscar le re renta,just all those so ex stuff...my mum is like this person who just misses shopping.my dad and i were trying to stop her and we even try to lock her in the plaza hotel room but she paid the conceirge $300 just to get the doors open and in the end we just gave up...

in france we visit the church and i really like them because they were like so romantic and the priests looked just like the one we saw in the movies.

europe was just spend touring around and shooping for bags,necklaces...

paris...the stupid tower,we went up to the top and i almost fainted cause it was like so tall!!!so high and if i fall,it will be like kingkong faliing from the empire building and i will surely make the healines...hahaz!

korea...so many girls dressed like so out of the crowd...they werewaiting for talents scouts to drag them out but since so many people dress so unnormaly,my family were like the ones who actually stand out from them...hahaz

miami-florida...thee sunny place and i guess it will be suitable for nazri and ronald cause got so many eurasian beauty and supermodels in bikinis...psst...we saw rachel mcadams,parishilton and a lot in there...

La-La land...the place where the new stars are and the billboard awards...we saw ashlee simpson,ryan cabera,mariah carey,angelina jolie(i hate her) and my favourite jennifer anniston of cause they were like major stars and we were just watching from far but at least we get to see them and of course kate moss...so it's like a great star showcase in there...

canada: my favourite country of all with all those nice people and of course we saw skye-sweetnam or what ever her name was and AVRIL LAVIGNE...my favourite star ever...the people was nice,air and every thig was so much better than singapore but more expensive...

still got a lot more places,if you guys wanna know then just tag my board k?

but you know something after all those flights,i really want to go home and see you guys once more...my classmates,friends,from sec 2,3,...north south east west,east bound home best...some of you guys say they want to exchange places with me but you find that after a while you will misss good old singapore,the clean,green,"fine" country as in money i meant...
oh yar by the way,if you wanna shop just go new york,they love the money and diamond...

got to go update soon...ciao,ta-ta,au revoir....