charmane's the name. a
n avid dreamer.socially active+hate to be alone. born in a family that seems to be frenz
I've got parents who are..different
marsiling pri-> bukit batok stay in style
music and skateboarding is my passion i try to appreciate things around me. LOVE moi him frenz family
DETEST: hypocrite silly mind games esp those who wants trouble for everything
MATHS+EXAMS=DEATH SENTENCE
"CHARMANE♥
♥DREAMS
♥get a brand new set
♥anniversary
♥buy lotsa stuff
♥cut moi hair
♥get more dreams
♥GET NEW PHONE!
♥get good results
♥DARLINKS
DON'T BOTHER PRESSING~I THINK HALF OF MY LINKS ARE DEAD~
[x ] afidah
[x ] amalina
[x ] cecilia
[x ] christine
[x ] danial
[x ] dorothy
[x ] eugenia
[x ] fiona
[x ] gillian
[x ] haqiz
[x ] jaslyn
[x ] jing yi
[x ] lay peng
[x ] li khoon
[x ] li shan
[x ] marcus
[x ] narita
[x ] ning
[x ] quek qi
[ x ] shahidah
[ x ] pei ru
[ x ] weizi
[ x ] wylin
[ x ] xin qi
[ x ] xue ling
[ x ] yu zhen
[ x ] yan jing
[ x ] yvonne
[ x ] zhiqi
[ x ] agnes
[ x ] syirah
[ x ] liying
[ x ] juliana
[ x ] farhannis
[ x ] nuoshi
[ x ] natahsa
[ x ] christine
[ x ] annette
[ x ] kayyan
[ x ] joey
[ x ] shafiq
[ x ] sherly
Bearing the burden of a secret storm Sometimes she wishes she was never born Through the wind and the rain She stands hard as a stone In a world that she can't rise above But her dreams give her wings And she flies to a place where she's loved Concrete angel A statue stands in a shaded place An angel girl with an upturned face A name is written on a polished rock A broken heart that the world forgot someday,i'll flew away leaving this place far far away where i'll be home....
Adults who have few of their emotional needs met are often unable to respond to the needs of their children. They may not show attachment to the child or provide nurturance. They may show no interest in the child, express affection or even recognize the child's presence. Many times the parent is physically there but emotionally unavailable. Other types of abuse are usually identifiable because marks or other physical evidence is left, however, emotional abuse can be very hard to diagnose or even to define Emotional abuse is probably the least understood of all child abuse, yet it is the most prevalent, and can be the cruelest and most destructive of all types of abuse. empty houses,empty rooms... so scary that it echos.... she said nothing much about it just look at it....
someday,i'll flew away leaving this place far far away where i'll be home....
-love me or hate me, thats your problem ;
星期五, 五月 11, 2007
-love me or hate me, thats your problem ;
WOOHOO! I LOVE BEING SICK BECAUSE EVERYONE WILL BE AT HOME FOR MIIE!
sick for dn know what reason but actually i am enjoying it a lot because my mum,dad,grandma all at home to look after miie! loving it but actually sick very pain lahx...let go throught the process..hehe tuesday nite abt 10plus,damn not feeling well then decided to take temp! got the shock it was 39 degrees lahx.hurried rush to bed but to no avail because cannot sleep but if sleep only for an hour then woke up so it;s like woke up @ 1 am,2am,3am,4,am ,5am then lastly 530am...haiz siao rite!then through the stupid horrible night, my temp rose to 39.6 degrees! then panicked arh,called my frenz then they ask me want go hospital or not then refused...no way,i wanna sleep hehe.then everyone got freaked over me keep calling me smsing till i woke up lahx...
actually my mum called ask me dn got to school she come from msia and fetch miie home,but being the stubborn me refused then she ask me eat panadol lahx..hehe i never...never really like medicine anyway so ended up much worse...
went for the stupid physics test,really losing my mind,my temp was 39.6 all the way then during physic anyhow do lahx...ms yee a bit concern ask me want go home i dn want!take the stupid test first.then during the stupid test realize my calculator in my bag then i really just give up,anyhow do the paper then go to sleep !!hehe,the teacher dn care one!!
think i am going to fail it but really dn care now..hehe went mac with daniel after the test just sat there and tok and i got a blue happy meal ballon!!hehe!like it a lot!thks daniel!
really tired just drifting away but i saw this video and omigod!! very sexual and hot! those watching don;t nose bleed on my blood k! CAUTION: OLD JAILBIRD LATER YOU HEART ATTACK DARLING GIRL'S HONEY: DN LET HER CATCH YOU BEMZ: WATCH ALL YOU WANT HEHE DN CARE! TO ALL: DN DIE HERE OKAY
-love me or hate me, thats your problem ;
星期一, 五月 07, 2007
我被贴上一种失恋的标签 这首歌真的很赞啊 感觉不到从前温柔的双眼,感觉得到你已不再眷恋 最近爱上了哀伤的歌,应该是心情吧!不管那么多!今天要好好地过!我为得是自己而活不是为别人! 一直认为属于夜晚的玫瑰才有一颗心 最近发现了 原来白日的玫瑰也会有心 不同的是白日的玫瑰因为有心人爱惜灌浇所以有心 而夜晚的玫瑰只能是与露水参合的品种 那颗心啊 原来是凝结这胸口的鲜血孕育出来的......泪水 hehe posting so long but really just want to add in some last minutes thought.. HEY PPL TAG LAHX... a bit boring to come to a blog where no one tags but i thick skin arh,still write TODAY IS A GOOD DAY! found out that i have a really good friend who can stand up for me because she think i like the victim.hehe! IMPLYING YOU LAHX IDAYU!! now in hospital hehe so used labtop lahx but the internet connection damn lousy..uhhh!!! miss moumou a lot a lot although she rite here at my leg but not going to see her until friday.. boohoo! miss her and of course drix lahx and all my other darlings!!muacks! oh yar remembered something( eh,jailbird,you too old to still chose your darlings lahx,my suggestion is still the best loh!!) then to bemz: eh,that day is your ps yourself lohx too bad lahx.only moumou and i go.hehe darling girl: sorry lahx babe want to tell you one but cannot arh
yesterday took moumou to the beach@ danga bay( MSIA)! want to complain about something! hello, msia govt sucks!it;s is so fucking unfair that cats are allowed in the mall but not dogs because there are malays.fuck you msia!but a lot of ppl yesterday took photo with moumou cause she too cute mahx and she was the only dog ever to go there!new record.lazy to post pictures,next time arhx. moumou is now a celebrity at danga bay even the poster got her cause she is so damn cute!make the right choice is taking her.!she damn sayang one lahx see ppl then go and want ppl to pet,only bark at strangers that we never say is friends and she very cute.like to slp at my lap..arrhhh! FALLING IN LOVE!
mood not bad recently cause got a lot of good friends to cheer me on..hehe enjoying and basking in the love
but i think home is really an empty space.i means i sleep in a big house,big bed but no one except doggies.and in singapore just me in a 5 bedroom flat except when my guardian comes over...i eat,sleep, study alone except when with friends lahx..at least i got damn lot friends and good one get me through..but i am used to it ever since i was just 7 i live around...really realize money is nothing when you have no one who is your family around you
SO TO THOSE WHO WANT TO MOVE OUT AND LIVE AROUND AND GET AWAY FROM YOUR FAMILY!!!TAKE A PIECE AN ADVICE FROM ME THE GAL WHO LIVE ALONE SINCE I WAS 7 !DON'T! REALLY MUST CHERISH YOUR FAMILY,IT;S REALLY NICE TO LOOK FORWARD TO GOING HOME AND THINKING THAT THERE;S A MEAL COOKED FOR YOU AND FAMILY TO EAT WITH.IT;S NOT BETTER TO EAT ALONE,HOW HEART-BREAKING YOU FEEL WHEN YOU SEE A FAMILY EATING TOGETHER,HOW NICE IT WOULD BE TO WATCH A TV SHOW WITH YOUR WHOLE FAMILY.I HAVEN'T DONE IT FOR YEARS....REALLY YOUR FAMILY ARE THOSE WHO REALLY CARE AND LOVE AND BE THERE FOR YO WHEN YOU'RE DOWN.YOUR MOTHER MAY NAG BUT IT;S JUST LOVE...REALLY,I WISH I COULD EXCHANGE PLACES WITH THOSE WHO HAVE A HAPPY FAMILY!DON;T THINK THE WHOLE WORLD EVOLVES AROUND YOU IF ONE DAY YOU FIND YOUR FAMILY GONE THEN YOU'LL KNOW THE PAIN!
GOD,makes me wish i have them..although i have no curfew,no rules.it would be nice if someone even notice i was not home for days and someone in the family notice i didn;t go school not the maid!someone to go with me to the hospital...just someone...i want my family..
hehe..going siao!drifting away
ta-ta sleeping beauty must catch her sleep
-love me or hate me, thats your problem ;
星期六, 五月 05, 2007
THE SADDEST THING in life is caring so much for someone and then one day when you look into their eyes and realize that they're gone.all is left is a stranger with a known name...
what does this true love mean when you can give it so many others...
sorry that you;re gone but the worst thing is i have no intention of pulling you back. you;re sinking more and more into it but i have no right to comment so you have no right either to comment on me...
if i can go on with my life why can;t you. if i can move you why can;t you if i can pretend that i am together once more why can't you? SO PULL TOGETHER YOUR ACT! GET USED TO THE FACT THAT WE;RE DONE
when in love, you won;t go and calculate who give more to it and who put in more but at the end the one that give in more will be the one that will suffer so why bother giving in??
HOME IS JUST A NAME, IT''S REALLY IS JUST AN EMPTY SPACE FOR YOU TO SLEEP IN
i'm sick and i want my baby sis back with me but she has flown far far away... this sickness can only be cured by a family... i'm gone and i want my elder sis back but she has flown away with my baby sis everyone gone and left me here alone... my heart was never full to start with... 10 years have gone since baby went away.flown to be an angel in heaven when she was only 8 months... SCREAMING OUT LOUD_____ COME BACK,I CAN;T BEAR IT BY MYSELF COME BACK,BRING ALL MY LONGINGS BACK BABY GIRL,COME BACK
the one that is left behind is the one that suffers the most
PS: IGNORE THIS POST...I;M DRIFTING AWAY
-love me or hate me, thats your problem ;
星期五, 五月 04, 2007
ARRRGHHH...RELATHIONSHIP BETWEEN PPL ARE SO HARD TO UNDERSTAND FRIENDS BEING THE MOST SENSITIVE... what's going on with my life??my friends are going berserk and everyone is twisting the story around while i stay still...shd i go or shd i stay...saw her cry today the only thing i can say is: cheer up babe, i'll be there for you and take up by the hand like i always do...so if the sky fall,i;ll be there...hehe.. my grandmama coming backkkk...miss her so much...hehe..my grandmama is hot by the way...
poor moumou is sick today keep vomitting then have to force the food down her throat bcuz she dn want to eat...boo...i want moumou to be healthy so can go for picnic with her...my dearest darlie lahx...moumou get well,want to go for walk, then the vet say moumou have bad disgestive system...another boohoo!!
just realize that i did not sleep at my house for two days for the week.went to miie friend house to stay so the house was quiet since i stay alone.it's boring...but went her house and have fun and no one even realize i was not home not even the maid...
ALONE FOREVER @ HOME HEHE,bemz ask me why i dn like to stay at home told him that it's boring he came over so sgp just bcuz i say that it was boring so sweet.went st james power station party like siao on friday aka today...only reach home...saw some celebrity kinda cool to see them bt they a bit siao cause everyone was partying...
haiz.dn know what i writing anymore,so must let sleeping beauty go catch her slp...tata
-love me or hate me, thats your problem ;
星期六, 四月 28, 2007
TO YOU: you told me it was to keep up appeareances and you really dn need her so you ask me to give you a chance and still go on being together.bcuz you dn like me and you loved me?you said that your whole life would be nothing without me and we could still go on and you only chose that girl bcuz your friends ask you to and now you say that your whole life is breaking to pieces...you were the one that cause it and do you think that i would be stupid enough to believe your lies. i gave us a chance after you ask for two years and now you're giving that chance.sorry but good opportunity don't come twice. your friends ask me to give it to you but i 'm telling you i dn care how popular you are but you broke the promise.remember under the sky.in case you forget: you said"i'll never let go,it's a promise" well now you broke it so i shall break mine. IF YOU THINK THAT YOU'RE SUFFEING, DO YOU THINK I'LL BE BETTER OFF? TO EVERYONE: hehe,so long never update so sorry hor.in case you;re wondering the bloody red msg, don;t wonder...it's not for you.hehe.basically my life is from the last time i blog has turned upside down but hey i am getting used to it.my sec 3 life officially sucks, results is full of red lines.haha i think the teachers marking my work must use at least 1 red pen just for me cuz too many mistakes already.sorri to all the teacher marking my work./..haiz..now i am studying like mad for eveything,maths,..i hate maths why do they even exist. i think the person that invent maths must hate human so much so as to invent maths to make them suffer.mwahaha... i think maybe i can stand physics now and maye miss p not that bad lahx.sori ppl i still think she okay lohx. anyway if i can like suffer this exam without wanting to burn my books ya..hehe a secret i highlight my hair red...hehe but only a bit so i can like still go to school.. know a lot of new friends lately all my juniors hehe cause they cum and learn skateboarding from our centre and i have to like teach them and they all damn pretty... but it's fun to get over someone and have fun teaching ppl how to skateboard WE'RE GOING OUT ON SUNDAY SO DN BOTHER US K? hehe that msg meant for all the other skaters who want me to teach sorri lahx i'm booked for the next whole month so book me in advance.
went out withall the skate-guys today. so weird cause i am like the only gal in the group then got one gal ask me: " are these all your boyfriends or can i ask them out?" i was so shocked until one of the guys in my group-jeff said: "yup,we are all dating her so you can buzz out" our whole group ended up laughing like siao.then went for thai food..hehe thks bi for all the money you pay, who ask you rich what hehe... sorri hor bemz but this picture of you too gay cannot stand it so must post: DOES HE LOOK GAY?A BIT RITE?HEHE
Bemz is like one of the seniors in my skateboard team with me. So either bemz teach or I teach the juniors. But most girls usually want him lahx because he guy mahx also he quite cute lahx. (See bemz I so nice one) but he actually single because he married to his autocar, skateboarding and me loh because bemz say I can teach him how to do skate tricks so must marry me .diao!
Recently just really married to skateboarding and my music and bemz lohx because I can also learn how to do some tricks from him as well. Eh bemz if I cannot marry, you died hor, ruin my reputation as if I have any>_<
But took some pictures of my mum birthday present including one that I handmade with help from narita as well. The only thing bought is the round thingy..we drew the snowflakes!!nice rite!!
Then got picture of my pretty mum @ 37 years old. quite young!! This is taken 2 months before now her hair more boy-style but more stylish than the boys in our school k!!my oh-so pretty mummy. Anyway I love you…hehe.sounds like some guai kia..
NEWEST BAG FROM GUESSENOUGH OF PICTURES but now must go and study later mummy come and tickle me again..That;s for all ta-da ppl
