*princess of attitude}]_____

♥THE BITCH♥

charmane's the name.
a n avid dreamer.socially active+hate to be alone.
born in a family that seems to be frenz
I've got parents who are..different
marsiling pri-> bukit batok
stay in style
music and skateboarding is my passion
i try to appreciate things around me.
LOVE
moi
him
frenz
family
DETEST:
hypocrite
silly mind games
esp those who wants trouble for everything MATHS+EXAMS=DEATH SENTENCE
"CHARMANE♥

♥DREAMS

♥get a brand new set
♥anniversary
♥buy lotsa stuff
♥cut moi hair
♥get more dreams
♥GET NEW PHONE!
♥get good results

♥DARLINKS

DON'T BOTHER PRESSING~I THINK HALF OF MY LINKS ARE DEAD~

[x ] afidah
[x ] amalina
[x ] cecilia
[x ] christine
[x ] danial
[x ] dorothy
[x ] eugenia
[x ] fiona
[x ] gillian
[x ] haqiz
[x ] jaslyn
[x ] jing yi
[x ] lay peng
[x ] li khoon
[x ] li shan
[x ] marcus
[x ] narita
[x ] ning
[x ] quek qi
[ x ] shahidah
[ x ] pei ru
[ x ] weizi
[ x ] wylin
[ x ] xin qi
[ x ] xue ling
[ x ] yu zhen
[ x ] yan jing
[ x ] yvonne
[ x ] zhiqi
[ x ] agnes
[ x ] syirah
[ x ] liying
[ x ] juliana
[ x ] farhannis
[ x ] nuoshi
[ x ] natahsa
[ x ] christine
[ x ] annette
[ x ] kayyan
[ x ] joey
[ x ] shafiq
[ x ] sherly

♥HER MISERABLE LIFE

♥THE GOSSIPS

♥THE GROOVE

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星期二, 四月 25, 2006

what going on?
what becoming of my life?
who is the one in charge of it?
Friends are changing , attitudes are changing , style are changings , fate are changing ...
you guys are like changing isit something wrong or what?dn just keep it to yourself i dn care who;s been badmouthing me but i dn really wanna know because it's not my problem.just wanna say it ur own eyes you see and the truth won't lie...(to my mis...independent gal)
Is there a barrier or taboo that i have broken?why does our friendship that seems to be so fantanstic seems so fragile now? maybe you still are living in the past of that event but you claimed to have moved on...the silence is closing in on us each time and you seems to find it good that i lose the ability to communicate with you.if you really want to tell me anything just do...i hate to be living in suspense...just sae what's wrong between us? i told you that day i have no idea what came over me...but you can't seem to forget that.that seems like your onli impression of me onwards.maybe the reason i acted like that is something i dn know...(you know who)
What in the world is wrong with you? how can a guy be so petty?you never seem to get angry at others for doing the same thing but you seems to be at me...is it because i was the first one do it?
but you know i mean no harm rite?i did what i can do already so if you want more just sae it...
( the petty person)
enough of the personal messgae...my life is changing so much...so of you become colder and further away(my wives) and some of you becoming closer...the lit test todae was fine finally i can pass a lit test already...i dn want to hear any rumours about her already stop it you ppl she not so bad...todae science was gruesome...apparently you have to stick something into the vagina then slice through the baby and suck it out...eww...and i thought i wanna take bio...apparently in the past it was sticking a machine in and crush it head then pull it out...eww why does it have to be so digusting...and that story abt that girl abort 6 times then cannot give birth...i mean she deserve because why should the 7th one be born while the other 6 dies...it not like 6 innocent life should die and spare the 7th...it;s her retribution...i didn't mean to be mean but hey it's the truth///why should 6 life exchange for one?
the zinnia planting thing was quite okay todae and our supervisior wit a name called " yishun"?
dn know but that was what that lady sae it was so a biology student became our supervisior...weird but he seems so ah beng hahaz...his face very long so we nicknamed him horse....then me and suxin and yunqi dicuss abt the time for watering plant then got an irritating security guard keep disturbing us and we were answering back.good he very annoying leh...then got one more irrtating guy come and bother us for his girl so i shoo him off with an evil stare...hahaz good,he nosiy....but they quite okae together lahx...
so must bless them de not like some ppl curse them lohx...hope she never hear of the things they sae...so what can we sae except god bless...hahaz
damn ass lame

-love me or hate me, thats your problem ;

星期一, 四月 03, 2006

YOU NEVER KNEW MY FEARS...THAT'S WHY YOU ENVY ME.YOU NEVER EXPERIENCE WHAT I BEEN THROUGH.THAT'S WHY YOU WANT MY LIFE.YOU NEVER LOST YOUR FAMILY BEFORE.THAT'S WHY YOU THINK MY WORLD PERFECT.IF YOU HAD KNOW THE LIFE I BEEN THROUGH,YOU BE WISHING YOU NEVER HAVE TO BE ME.
FEAR DIDN'T COME TO MY LIFE,I WAS BORN WITH FEAR AND THE WILL TO SURVIVE IN THE DARKEST NIGHTMARE.YOU MIGHT THINK I AM THE CHEERFUL GAL IN YOUR CLASS/SCHOOL BUT WHAT LIES UNDERNEATH IS BANNED TO ALL...
YOU MIGHT THINK YOU KNOW ME INSIDE OUT,BUT TRUTH IS DO YOU REALLY?
DO YOU KNOW WHAT I CAN DO,WHAT I SUFFER,WHAT I LIVE? YOU DON'T BECAUSE I PACKAGE MYSELF WITH WALLS...IRON AND YOU NEVER KNOW ME UNTIL THE DAY I LET YOU IN...
DID YOU KNOW THAT I CAN COOK AND BAKE?DID YOU KNOW I HAVE BEEN SKATE-BOARDING FOR 5 YEARS?DID YOU KNOW THAT I CAN SEW?DID YOU KNOW I A MIXED-BLOOD?DID YOU KNOW THAT I USED TO HAVE SISTERS?DID YOU KNOW MY BEST FRIENDS ARE GUYS?DID YOU KNOW I VOLUNTEER AT THE HOSPITAL?DID YOU KNOW I NEVER LIKED ANYONE BEFORE?DID YOU NOW I GIVE ADVICE TO THOSE PPL?
YOU PPL SO CALLED AS MY CLASSMATES FOR 1AND MORE YEARS DN KNOW...BECAUSE SOME OF YOU NEVER CARE MORE.YOU LOOK ON THE OUTSIDE.YOU PPL ARE FAKERS THE BEST OF THE ACTORS.YOU THINK YOU ARE ALL SO PERFECT BUT ARE YOU REALLY?YOU PRETENDED TO CARE ABOUT OTHERS BUT IT'S JUST POLITNESS?BECAUSE DEEP INSIDE YOU DN CARE.YOUR LIFE ABOUT URSELF AND YOU DN CARE TO GIVE...JUST TAKE...NO OFFENCE TO THOSE BUT THIS ONLY APPLY TO THOSE WHO KNOW WHO THEY ARE LIKE THE CA...BUT SOME OF YOU REALLY CARE LIKE RITA...THOSE ARE DAMN REAL NICE PPL WHO DESERVES THE REAL POPULAR CROWN...
ANYWAY I HATE THIS FESTIVAL...QINGMING JIE...WHERE YOU ARE SUPPOSED TO PRAY TO THE DEATH...I DN WANT IT,I WANT THIS THING TO GO AWAY.I DN WANNA SEE THEM CRY AND I DN KNOW WHAT TO DO...MY TEARS DN SEEM TO DROP.IT NEVER DID...THE BURNING AND THE PRAYING IS TOO HORRIBLE FOR ME. MAYBE THE PAIN IS STILL THERE AFTER 10 YEARS.MAYBE I NEVER GET OVER IT YET I MUST GET OVER IT SOON. IF I BREAK DOWN.WE PERISH.I MUST BE STRONG.I DIDN'T CHOOSE TO BE STRONG,I WAS FORCED TO.I FIND THINGS LIKE SIBLINGS LOVE MOST TREASURING MAYBE IT'S BECAUSE I USED TO HAVE IT BUT THE HOLY PERSON WE CALL GOD TOOK THEM AWAY...
LIFE AIN'T FAIR THAT'S WHY I STILL BEARING BUT SOME DAY I KNOW I BURST...

-love me or hate me, thats your problem ;