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星期三, 九月 28, 2005

today remains today...

yesterday remains yesterday...

nobody can change the fact that we are living in today...now is today,yesterday is gone.

just updating my blog as usual for nobody but myself to see.but it's just a way i can tell about what i feel and what happened.

okay,basically today was a very different wednesday from the rest.we get to go to the hall for a talk on dengue fever.why won't anyone believe me when i said that i got it before.look,if you dn believe me just tell me straight,no need to act,okay?
mrs chee never come today then mr nagulan say want to take over but never come,waste of time lohx...but at least the class very guai todae...actually listen to me and keep quiet,must praise them already...after assembly,ms mastuty ask us stay back to talk to us abt the state of th classroom.a lot of ppl kena and get caught to mdm khadijiah there,luckily i never get caught.
then after dat,stay back to do lohx.later kena caught den not good le...after the duty thing,we stay back and talk lohx...den found out got one "jing zhong ren' in our class but i never really thought she was that kind of ppl lohx...looks can be deceiving.
after the whole thing went home with my brother lohx...so sian one.but got this song very nice,u all must listen to...it's called "WAKE ME UP WHEN SEPTEMBER ENDS"by green day...so go and listen...haiyah!!i forgot to finish d & t project...later kena mr loo scold...must go do now...till next time...bye bye

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星期六, 九月 24, 2005

addicted once more...

it's not bad but it's not good either...

what can i do but accept it...

the fact that i am addicted to it...

to what?

to coldness,hot-temper,my life and to him...

guess that's just the way i am and i can't stop it...

ever felt like u can't stop doing something thing?once u did not did it,u feel very odd and can't stop thinking abt it?well,that's just the feeling i am getting now because i just decided to let him know my existence and the feeling he get when i did not do the things i did everyday.cause i want him to experience that feeling i get.i will not be the first one to do the thing because todae,i rather wait...i want him to know the importance of my presence because i dn want to be taken for granted by someone.

okay basically my day really seems incomplete without doing my routine but i will wait...
why is everyone telling me how WONDERFUL gabriel is?i mean i know what i said but is there really a need for everyone to tell me the so-called truth abt him being the nice guy?just because of one comment i made abt him earlier on?so please cut the crap abt him already...
and aren't brothers supposed to be nice to you but why the hell my brother is always saying those thing to me?he doesn't know it but i actually hate it so anyone who read my blog please tell my brother if u know him...
and the gals stop ur crap okay?i know he is nice but why should u guys keep asking me for his everything eg:friendster?why dn u guys just ask him straight...nothing to say but i want to stay not addicted...

when can i live finally?

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星期五, 九月 23, 2005

i guess i'mjust addicted...
addicted to what?
life...library...songs...avril lavigne and more...
today i went to the library again...so sian.nothing to do and nobody there...
oh yar,i saw hui qi today with van...her locker is just directly above mine...her habits just like me lohx...cause we both too lazy to take home the books so the locker very messy...got all the shit inside...found out abt this band called the Click Five...their song quite nice and they look okae...
todae at school,i think he found out that i wrote abt him already cause the way my face is when i saw him was so obvious according to him...god...but i think he dn know what i wrote which is a relief for a while but who knows when he found out...guess i must delete it soon so there is no trace left on it...eqa and me talk to nesh today,he was so naggy in a nice way...but it was all abt atiqah anyway,i was just there to listen to lectures...regret it horribly,nesh really weird nowaday...always saying this and that...nt my problem...anyway i found out that bamboo stick specs is framless...what the hell he is wearing it for?siao already...honestly i think vu has changed a lot as in mind,his thinking and stuff...he is now getting jealous of ppl easily but i dn really want to tell him that,do i?who knows...h.s and y.h are working on almost the whole of weekdays because it is fun according to them but i dn think so...i thought work is tiring not fun so why do they like to work so much...not fot he money i think...when i am 14,i am going to work too because i also want to feel the fun...guess we jsut have to see...
i wish i wasn't addicted...

-love me or hate me, thats your problem ;

星期四, 九月 22, 2005

YIPEE!

GOD BLESS!

IT CAME TRUE!

i am so happy today because she have finally forgive me and spoke to me...her cookies was really nice and tasty...my wish that she forgive me finally came true and i cannot be more happier...okay,basically today d&t test will cost my life and almost everyone know that they will fail cause no one study...then the math test which was so hard that even jaselyn did not finish...but in the end,i got more questions right more than her,i think it's pure luck...then after the whole test,we went to the library again...how many times must i go there this week...it seems like the whole week u have been there for no reason...i guess i must get addicted to the library...i was so bored todae that i called a lot of ppl to chat but not for a long time...i think i better stop writing abt gabriel already or else somebody will betray miie....i hope she will never be angry at miie angry...i spoke to a very irritating guy todae,he is bonkers already...todae nesh is crazy already,call me over and say"this one can?" to this guy call andrew...andrew smile and show a v-sign and i was like "what the hell is going on here?"then i realise that andrew want a gf and nesh just call me over...what the hell he think i am!!some girl who can just be anyone gf...i was kinda mad and told eqa...then we tml going to tell him something...hope he dn mind...pat-pat so worried today,hope he's okay....oh yar,gabriel actually did something that make me change my mind abt him, but when i scolded him,he went back to the same old guy.leopards never change their spots...got to go already

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星期三, 九月 21, 2005

frezzing...

coldnes...

icy...

updating my blog again at the library because dn want to go home...i am just gonna skip the school stuff and to the library.who wants to listen anyway,it's always the same.i was planning to go home with shahidah but both of us were talking abt stuff and walk to the library.we chose a corner and just took a book.i did not see what i took and i found that it was: finding a husband after 35".both of us were like siao already,cause it's not like we were going to turn 35 the next day!anyway,i started reading and it was really stoopid.then we saw aishyah and tahira.they were actually here to look at a cute guy which they came to see everyday at the library.then i just saw him and my eyes practically roll out!
the guy was the same guy who talk to me yesterday and smile at me...i was like shocked then i told them i knew him.they were damn excited,then we change to the computer next to us because of the mouse and the cute guy.i was like shocked and a bit siao already.then the guy want to go already,he talk to me and i just reply normally.those gurls were so crazy.then he walk off and i turn,he also turn back and then he smile and i just smile back.tahira only saw i smile but i told them if they ever saw him smile,u will notice he got dimples,deep ones.i just shrugged because i guess i am not their age and dn understand what was with the guy thing,but i think i will one day.
the girls went soon after the guy went...practically siao...
now,me and shahidah,afidah,rose and hidayah or what is his name still in the library,wasting time in a fridge.but we are not going home yet,so let us freeze to death then...

nothing to say,so tag my board...
ciao!

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星期日, 九月 18, 2005

apologize...

the the only thing i can say to her now...

it was really an accident...

she won't listen and hates miie now...

apologize..in case u haven't read my tag board or amalina blog...this is what happened...i lost her notebook before the holidays and can't find it...unfortunately her good charlotte lyrics was in it and now it's all gone...she was mad until now and hates miie...i apologize already but she doesn't listen...i guess i must find the notebook or i have to "divorce" her which i hates to...but what can i do now...somebody helps miie...so long haven't update already...no time and everything so i just do a long one abt the day of the truth and dare and friday...
miie.pei ru and gary wong a.k.a WONG KIAT MING stay back to play and for no reason...we stay at the canteen doing nothing but paying...i guess that's what a teenager life should be...of course i also saw h.s who also saw me but we both dn dare to call each other but we sms in the night...i think we are really stupid...he told miie where he works and then we joke that i was going to see him work...he even told me the time and place...guess he is just a pretty nice guy...we both can be friends...the problem is we both never call out to each other when we saw each other in school...we both must be siao already...nowadays i never sms y.h already...dn know why but ever since i found out where he work,he is really weird...why is that so?
friday...we had a really tiring but cool drill...saw gabriel in his uniform..cannot imagine he is a se...then we went home...me,esther and pei ru got on the same bus as gabriel...he is NOT a gentleman...we dn have seats while he have den i ask him let us sit...he actually say"u can come and sit next to me..." what a idiotic guy as if we would sit next to him...rather die...anyway saw him go dunno where...he really idiot...i know he won't see this entry cause his com spoil already...hahaz...i write what i like...kiat ming hates his name but me,pei ru keep saying it out loud but he cannot do anything cause his senior watching...gabriel also his senior...den that gabriel friend,i think mao zai or what also in the cca,i saw him and he stare back i think cause i stare at himw hen he sang today...nothing else to say...amalina,my mistress forgive me

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星期三, 九月 14, 2005

croack...

this is no frog u are hearing...

it's just me

i seriously sound like a frog now because we were singing for our music project group rehearsal for an hour or so todae with gary wong kiat meng a.k.a "leong yew" as our judge and he teaches us some so dramatic actions that only he dare to do it...in the end irritate debbie...hahaz...who ask him to act like a sissy when he is not one...i went home just take my guitar to school but in the end we never use it cause we can't seem to find the notes...never mind anyway...we can just sing...den nesh came and say things to danial in malay though we cannot understand,he sounds quite angry...den danial didn't have the rap so HE COULD NOT PRACTICE with us and instead critise us...he just said he lost the lyrics but he knew how to rap...i am not really sure cause that day his rap was so not like the original one...making it sounds kinda weird...i really dn know abt him already...if we fail on that day,we will blame him because we practice like hell...while he did not...anyway today was really fun during CME cause our group came up with a really funny versuin of lim boseng and lim actually bet and everything...it was really funny but i hope we can practice more...then after the singing session we went home...but while singing i kinda get angry cause while the rest was putting in 100%,some were just not even trying to make the group and even complain...hello,it's not just u who want to go home but us too...but after the session u get so energetic and even went home late...what can i say abt u but u really dn care and we dn care whether u care or not...but please at least try...i knows it's tiring but just bear okae...it's our last practice though so don't worry anymore...haiyah...really regret bringing the guitar cause a lot of ppl stare at me...i just pretend not to see...i will never bring it again...does anyone knows where is walls cause i want to find out...apparently it's a place...tag my board too...

frogs singing signing off...

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星期二, 九月 13, 2005

i change a new blog skin already...guess it's abt the same as the old one just that the colour is different..my display name change too...i guess i am going the political way too much..anyway the day really lame..afidah and gang with me had lame jokes from a english book the whole science period...eg:which star is the biggest on earth? superstar!it's really lame...den we went cdans and i spent $6.4o on a stupid meal and we share as in me,shahidah,rose,afidah,narita and atiqah...family picnic...den we head off to westmall to the library...den we went present hunting with ying jie...spend twenty sumthing on matching present...completed with card and everything...den me and narita head off to coffee bean for coffee and cake...we helped an old lady translate something and she wanted to treat us but we ran away...haha...her husband actually work for the feredal...cool but he is dead now...todae at school i finally realized the meaning of bitchness...i hate it...wat more can i say..dat i wish i wasn't going to be bitch...guess i really had nothing to say...u want to see more of my entry,go my msn space...bye

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